help I love Mazikeen what do I do.

I mean. To be honest, I loved her since she showed in The Sandman for the first time, solely for her super cool design,and then in the Lucifer comic, she’s so cool, and then the tv adaptation showed up and I thought “hmmm she seems to be a totally different character oh well, well se how it’ll turn out” but now I’m “my queen please step on me”.